Things just keep changing

So..why is it that the more things change...the less they change? I had a job interview last week....thought it went really well. They kept my portfolio, kept me in the interview for nearly an hour...and yet...still no word on what is happening.
Things changed over night for me...and I can't seem to get my head wrapped around it...
and I can't get my balance. I am falling...clawing to stop myself...and not finding anything to grab onto...finding nothing that looks normal.
The holes here are huge...gaping and raw.... I used to be dented....now.....i can't even describe it.. I just wish...I could get something normal back...